Milieu of Me

So another nurse, one I’ve never talked to, called me this morning. While yesterday they were able to give me my HCG level, they weren’t able to give me my progesterone. So she told me it’s above 60.
Then told me my beta is above 2000 which is great. Then she asked if [...]

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Remember that show, anyone? Back in the day, my husband and I would come back from a party, and order a pizza, and watch that show and laugh hysterically. That may have had more to do with the party beforehand than the actual show…. I really liked that guy.
Anyway - tonight [...]

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My beta came back 2075.  The OB doctors will tell you this is in normal range…and it is.  But it’s HIGH.
Like twins high.
So I have an ultrasound on Tuesday, where I am thinking I just may see two little pumpkins.  And I am PRAYING for two little heartbeats. :)  Because I just want to start [...]

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October 15th, today, is a day women accross the nation will remember their children. Whether they held them, or never did, they are bringing awareness and hope through this national event. Specifically, reading through Angie’s comments is staggering.
Today we’ll remember Ruby and Gabriel. We’ll remember with hope knowing they’ve got [...]

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I was up almost all night last night.  Tossing and turning, unable to get comfortable, and unable to get the events of last July, and last October out of my head.  The ultrasounds, one after another, all showing a dead baby.  The blood last October.  It’s haunting me.  I know I should have more faith, [...]

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So remember when I said I was voting for McCain?  Remember when I went to the rally?
Remember when I was all excited about how the mavericks were going to change office?
I’m completley over it.  First I saw this video today…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=itEucdhf4Us
What I didn’t mention about the McCain rally I attended is that people were FREAKING RUDE.  [...]

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I can’t believe today is Friday.  WOW!  It’s just been such a whirlwind since last week at this time.  I can’t even wrap my little brain around it.
I can’t even describe the happiness I feel in just being at my house.  I don’t like sharing living space with 8+ other people, and then going and [...]

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Well my Grandmother passed away Friday night.  We kind of knew it was coming, but we really didn’t.  I guess one minute I was thinking it was going to happen, and the next I remembered my grandma was a tough cookie, and it could drag out for months.  Basically after my uncle passed away, [...]

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Another positive this morning, although not before I threw a HUGE hissy fit, because the digital tests are still coming back negative (they test for higher levels of the hormone) and I couldn’t see the positive on the other two (yes I took three tests this morning…SO WHAT.) I walked out, and the boy [...]

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I’m trying not to post here because I’m extremely grumpy.  Like beyond grumpy, and irritable, and just ROAR!!!!!!
I have absolutely nothing nice to say, unless it’s how nicely eyeballs look CUT OUT OF PEOPLE’S HEAD.
I know, it’s awful.  Where are the hands and face of Jesus?  Where’s your Christian attitude Jenny?
Listen, I spend each night [...]

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