I’m not pointing any fingers here but something happened to my child. He came home from my parents terrified of sleeping. He refused to take a nap this afternoon, you saw what happened last night. And tonight he fought me tooth and nail for two hours to go to sleep.
I talked to my mom and she says when he’d wake up they’d bring him out with them, whether it was to my mom’s room with the TV on, or with my Dad on the couch with the TV on. I’m believing that because last night when I laid with him in the living room he was out in 3 seconds flat.
He’s so scared, and upset. He’s giving himself diarrhea. Which HAS to be changed, and he’ll tell me when it happens. Tonight I finally parked it on the floor next to his crib and he reluctantly passed out. NOT before waking up three times terrified making sure I was still there.
It’s horrid. It’s THE WORST thing to do to a mom. Have her baby crying for her, and not go to him. Right now though I know he’s asleep I keep hearing him crying. It’s torment. It’s going to nix Grandma sleepovers I tell you.
All I can remember is how terrified I got at night when I was little. I would go sleep on the floor next to my Dad’s side of the bed. Some nights he would wake me up and make me go back to bed. I got really good at making a sleeping bag out of the comforter, and hiding up under their foot board, so much so that sometimes my mom would freak when she couldn’t find me. My sister did the same with me. I think I may have another me on my hands.
It makes me worried about when we move. He’ll be moving to a big boy bed then as well. I am wondering if it’s not a good idea to switch him now….
It just breaks my heart. I don’t want him to doubt that I will come and be there instantly when he needs me. It’s too important, the trust between a mother and the child. I think I’m broken in half.
