Well, I’m making baby shower invitations. I’m not excited about this shower at all. There are a lot of reasons, but mostly the obvious one, and the lack of consideration of that in asking me to do the shower. I should have said no, and I can see that now, but the opportunity to bless someone was more important at the time.
I’m just finding myself very angry, and I don’t like it. But I’m also back in the throes of trying with hope again, so that could have a lot to do with it. I don’t know. I’m just having a hard time sorting it all out. I just look at the baby stuff and want to scream. I hug my baby and I want to scream. It’s like being stuck in between two worlds and it’s just beyond words.
Anyway - we’re still waiting for the people to get back to us on the counter, counter offer we sent them last night. I HATE THIS PART….did I mention that?
Mostly I’m sick of jumping through hoops for things that are supposed to come easily in life, just to find out everything is a fight. I am SICK of fighting, I want to just have some easy peace.
