Dear Jesus,
May 16, 2008 by milieuofme
Thank you for fellow bloggers. Bloggers who grieve the same way you do, who know your pain. Who get what it’s like to be a mom, but struggle with infertility. Who are open and honest and ugly, just like me. ;
This poem I found today, and I loved it thought I would share. This week marks the week I was due with our second little angel baby. I didn’t even realize it until I was looking at someone else’s blog - who lost their little one same time as me. It feels sad, but good at the same time. The moment has passed, and now I go forward…knowing all I have is the promises of God. That’s MORE than enough.
What Makes A Mother
I thought of you and closed my eyes; and prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard him say…A Mother has a baby, this we know is true. But God can you be a Mother, when your baby’s not with you?
Yes you can, he replied with confidence in his voice. I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime; and others for a day. And some I send to feel your womb, but there’s no need to stay.
I just don’t understand this God, I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared his throat; and then I saw a tear. I wish I could show you, what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile with other kids and say, “We go to Earth to learn our lessons of Love and Life and Fear, My Mommy Loved me oh so much, I got to come straight here.”
“I feel so lucky to have a Mom, who had so much love for me. I learned my lesson very quickly, my mommy set me free. I miss my Mommy oh so much but I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep, on her pillow’s where I lay.”
“I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek; and whisper in her ear. Mommy don’t be sad today, I’m your baby and I’m here.” So you see my dear sweet one, your children are okay. Your babies are here in my home; and this is where they’ll stay. They’ll wait for you with me, until your lesson is through. And on the day that you come home; they’ll be at the gates for you.
So, now you see what makes a Mother, it’s the feeling in your heart. It’s the Love you had so much of; right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize, you are a Mother, until their time is done. They’ll be up here with Me one day and know that you are the best one!
By Jennifer Wasik
