Milieu of Me

So it’s official. I’ve gone completely crazy.
Yesterday I thought I might be heading that way. But today I’m positive. I’m done.
My body is a giant hurty blob of baby carrier, my hormones are out of control, and I have reached the limits of what I can take [...]

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Okay so this post has nothing to do with the Mormon Tabernacle. I just was listening to a conversation about it last night at dinner because the boy was in Salt Lake City again this week. So it’s in my brain.
So last Sunday we went to a new church. We are [...]

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Six weeks to go….
That sentance is much more powerful than it looks in writing. It’s changing the very foundation of a life I created and have lived for the last two years, and I love it. I have not felt so much love and so much hope for my life since I got [...]

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So this weekend was crazy. Probably too crazy for me, as today I am exhausted and sicker than I have been in a long time.
But this weekend was Mother’s Day and the boy Mom’s birthday is today, so we went down Friday night, stayed at the boy’s mom. His whole family [...]

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On Thursday night me and the boy are lying in bed, in the middle of a fake war.
I like to wage jihad on him from time to time, just keep him on his toes, and because sometimes goofing around with your husband in a vicious, heart stabbing manor keeps your marriage sane. [...]

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So the last couple days Mr. Feebus and I have been struggling a little bit. I’ve come to another transitional point in my pregnancy…the last one was about two months ago.
This is a time when my tummy feels really full, I feel horrible tired, heartburny, poopless and uncomfortable.
***Please be advised I will [...]

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So last Wednesday night, my husband BEGS me to come for a walk with him. Since it’s Wednesday, I worked all day, I have a full DVR and I’M EIGHT MONTHS PREGNANT AND UNCOMFORTABLE I politely decline and tell him that I would rather just rest so I’m not all tired at work tomorrow.
These [...]

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So I’m thinking about going back to counseling again. I am noticing a lot of things in my life that aren’t going the way that I want them to be and thinking that I should change them, but they never seem to change.
This makes me frustrated and really angry, and at this [...]

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So last night we went to Grandma’s for Tuesday with Grandma…there’s a lot more involved to getting there now that we live on the other side of town, but I opted to go anyway because I am exhausted and figured that I needed a night off of unpacking things, and worrying about what I am [...]

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Well here I sit at work, and if I wanted to I could drive my car away.
The impact of that statement is something I cannot convey to you through any words….It’s AWESOME.
We survived the weekend, and if you want all the sordid details, you should read below.
Friday morning as you can see from my [...]

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