So, it’s 1:30 in the am and I can’t go to sleep.
I’m worrying about everything and anything and I’m making it impossible to sleep. So I’m going to blog it and hopefully it will leave my head.
First thing is the baby. He wasn’t moving very much today, and I was worried about it because if he was infected he might be sick and not move around as much. Then I talked to the teacher of our baby class today and she said that they shouldn’t have left me alone with the infection for that long. And she also said that I have to trust my doctor and if I don’t I have to switch. I think she’s right. Between the whole my husband won’t be able to father my children this, and now this I’ve just had enough. The boy wants to switch hospitals too. So I found a new doctor/hospital combo and I’m going to get everything switched over this week. So that’s happy but I’m just worried about long term effects, and REALLY just wish we were home where I knew all the doctors, had the moms to help me with this new baby, and my friends to love me up. This whole thing is almost too much.
Second thing is student loans. We have way too many, and had no problem getting the federal ones consolidated, but the private ones are proving to be a pain in the ass, and if we don’t get the private ones consolidated we are going to be paying way more than we can afford and I will be heading back to work after the baby is born, something that the boy and I just hate to think about right now. It’s just really frustrating because here’s another situation where if my credit didn’t blow chunks our lives would be SO much easier to cope with in the money department. And now all I get to do is worry and leave our financial lives in the hands of the banks again. I HATE it, and I think it really sucks that for the last four years of my life money has had such a huge and stupid part of my life. I wish someone would have taught me something about money, and I wish that I would have been smarter about it. Nothing ever gets resolved on this one either.
Third thing is moving. We need to move, we need to pack. I can’t move anything. There’s only one friend to help. We need to hire movers, it’s going to be expensive. Nothing ever gets resolved on this one.
Fourth thing, our taxes. The boy’s stupid last job didn’t take out enough taxes leaving us to pay in this year by a ridiculously high amount. We still haven’t filed yet because we can’t pay, and we were going to go H & R Block to get this figured out to make sure that we have to pay that much, but I can’t find the paperwork now, it magically disappeared in the mess on the desk and I can’t find it, and we only have 20 days to file now and it’s stressing me out.
So that’s that.
In happier news the boys friends were magically around this weekend. WIll is moving to Hawaii on April 4th and came up to have a last harrah. We did a lot of stuff with them and it was fun.
AGH. Now it’s almost two. I’m never going to make it to church tomorrow if I don’t go to bed.
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