Was reading my friends message and it really got me thinking. I am sure he’s reading this, so this next paragraph is for him mostly.
I already talked about last weekend, but I am going to again for the sake of the topic. I too am a little perturbed by her actions then, but some things never change. I guess you can’t really be mutually best friends with someone when the friendship is all about the other person. It’s a sad part of the truth that becomes your adult life.
If it makes you feel any better, a wedding didn’t seem impressive to her either. It’s not going to ever. That’s what I have learned in the short time since rearrival. I make a conscious effort to be a good person, and make myself less available to walk on.
In so far that we’ve changed we haven’t, because I realized we were both STILL looking for the person we’d like to be there instead of remembering who it really was.
Sad but true….and still hurty. BUT we are good people, and we have SO many other people who want to be there for and care about us.
School is crap. Think I may have to go until August now. I hate this crap. I can’t seem to get these STUPID science classes taken without failing them repeatedly. I suck.
Stress is the name of the game this week. UGH!
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